My word, what a week. Coming back from a fabulous ten day trip in the warm west, right into the cold freezing snow of the East, coupled with long days of training, teaching and programming, topped off with some bummer news midweek made for just a week I'd rather not do again.
I miss my family. I miss my niece. I miss the warm weather.
I'm beyond bummed I missed out on a goal I set for myself.
My body is all over the place because of food and drink choices the past two weeks.
But, still we look at the good. The small little pieces of the week worth celebrating. They get a shout out because they play JUST as big of a role in my life as the defeats and bummers.
... Can't talk about the week without mentioning THE BIRTHDAY! Thank you all for your sweet wishes, they meant so much to me. 35 is shaping up to be a wonderful year because I feel more confident, at peace with who I am and stronger than ever. Having family and friends think about me truly made my week.
... I had a pretty big goof up during my BODYPUMP class on Tuesday but the class just rolled with it. Afterwards I spoke with a couple who I adore and when I laughed at my ooops the woman said "even with mistakes, you're still the best instructor here". Talk about a WOW moment.
... Sportyspice texted the family that lil bean slept for FOUR hours in a row the past two nights, woop!
... Wednesday I posted about not making the team and the responses was overwhelming. I had debated even saying anything, since it was still raw and devastating, but I'm so glad I did. The public pump ups were amazing, the private DMs were inspiring and the settling of peace of mind did wonders for my emotions. THANK YOU for supporting me.
... After a SPRINT class on Wednesday, a member and I walked out to our cars together where we chatted for ten minutes. We spoke about life, teaching, future and it was just a GREAT moment of getting to know another human being. Someone who is similar to me, despite are big age difference. Grateful to daily impact people's lives and meet new personalities.
... Yesterday was my last day of physical therapy, so now I do the work on my own.
Wishing you and yours a fabulous weekend, hoping you're somewhere WARM!
April 19, 2018
Almost. 2018 began with a brave step into the unknown. March brought another brave step as I pursued my dream at a live audition. Earlier this week I received the news I would not be moving on to join the presenter team this year, ending my journey for the moment. The talent at auditions was fire, cream of the crop incredible and I'm so thrilled for those moving on this year. They are going to shine this year and I can't wait to see what they bring to the team. I am also beyond grateful I was picked to audition, able to meet the LMUS team in person, learn from the best and understand their philosophy. I trust their judgement and believe they know what they want every year.
Almost. I'm not going to lie, this moment stings. BAD. It hurts more than I've shared on other social media avenues. I cried when I read the email because all of the work just went POOF in a matter of paragraphs. This was something I wanted so badly and I TRULY thought I had a good chance after the live audition. My feedback was great, I felt I did my best and the numbers seemed to be in my favor. Hearing 'no' is a swift kick to the gut as I look back on moments and wonder what if? I wanted this because I wanted to be great. I've been good at many things throughout my life but rarely, if EVER, have I been great. I seem to JUST miss the mark each time and THIS moment was so close I could taste the words, "I MADE IT".
Almost. Moments like these can be breaking or making points. Almost moments force us to look deep into our core, into our soul and decide where we go after we fail. Do we quite? Do we walk away? Do we throw our hands up and say never again? Do we grow bitter and angry? Or do we recommit? Do we learn? Do we refocus and use the failure as fuel for the NEXT CHANCE?
Almost. I am sharing this not to gain comments or 'you're great' words. I'm posting this failure to let everyone know it happens to everyone and that failing is okay. Whether you've failed something big, small, or just missed a weigh in or a fitness challenge know that FAILURE DOES NOT define you. Being brave, making the choice to try something...THAT DEFINES YOU. Standing back up after falling on your face...THAT DEFINES YOU. Choosing to persevere after being told no...THAT DEFINES YOU. Keep showing up. Keep grinding. Keep doing the work. Maybe almost this year means DAMN YES next year. Maybe it means in two years. Maybe you were ready for the team but they weren't ready for what you bring to the table. Maybe you are a margarita and they needed champagne this year.
ALMOST now fuels my fire. Being so close means I'm THAT FAR ahead for next year. My current Les Mills journey will include focusing more on my teaching to better serve my members. To hone my craft to be the BEST I can be EACH and EVERY class. I believe in rising up stronger and better than when I fell short, so BRING.IT.ON!
Thank you for all of your support over the past few months. Thank you to everyone who saw this post yesterday on INSTAGRAM and FACEBOOK. I appreciate your words more than you know and your support of MY dreams means the world.
April 16, 2018
Back in town and wearing a frown. Well, not really, but kinda sorta. I happy to be home after ten fabulous days of travel, my bed felt so nice last night. Yet, my heart is sad because I miss my sisters and my lil niece something fierce after a week of glorious togetherness. Recap will be up later this week, so here are a few teasers of my trip to Arizona and Las Vegas.
April 15, 2018
Today I turn 35. Shocking and exciting. Thrilling and nerve wracking. Wow and whoa. I have a post with even more thoughts on this age coming during the week. Today I just want to say CHEERS to another trip around the sun. I am thankful and grateful for this wonderful life.
April 6, 2018
The three ANTONDAS are together. My heart is so full! The best win, ever. Plus one special lil girl is joining in the party this time and I am so very much in love. My two best friends and a baby girl, what could be better?
Wishing you and yours the best weekend. I'm soaking up the Arizona sunshine and baby girl smiles.
April 4, 2018
cultivating the perfect look in our master bath, picking up all the last lil accessories.
expecting the next ten days to be pretty fanFREAKINGtastic. #birthdaytrip #sissyreunion #babyniece
buying nothing but the necessities right now. #lightattheendofthetunnel #soon
cooking healthier foods because I will be on a beach at the end of the month, eeek!
believing THIRTY-FIVE could be my best year yet, cheers to BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!
loving I leave for Arizona this week to see baby niece. weeeedeeedeeeee
reading books, allllll the booooooks! #historicalfictionkick
anticipating audition results. this month, people, eeeek! #graceforeitheroutcome #wantitbad
wearing workout clothes with NO JACKET! PTL! Spring is happening here.
renovating nothing. FLIP FLOP NOTHING, HALLELUJAH AND HALLELUJAH!
April 3, 2018
... cold wintery weather days with snow and temperatures below 40 degrees.
... heavy annoying jackets.
... first quarter of the year. wow, you went by SO QUICKLY.
... layers upon layers upon layers because we can't figure out the weather.
... four seasons in ONE WEEK!
... Lent! The tomb is EMPTY!
... a month of extreme ups and downs.
... visit out west to see family and celebrating my birthday in Las Vegas.
... birthday month. I no longer celebrate a month, but I can't think April without thinking birthday.
... birthday month for some of my sweet sweet darling friends lil girls. #lovesharingthemonth
... the launch of BODYATTACK100. SO SO SO SO SO GOOD!
... beautiful flowers, greenery and of course, pollen.
... April showers, bringing May flowers.
... first kickball tournament of the season.
... SPRING! SPRING! SPRING!